I didn't set out to change the world - not even my little corner of it. I simply decided to follow Jesus - and that made all the difference.
There are some scriptures that need to be lived...breathed...touched...wrestled...before they can ever be appreciated or understood.
I've long wrestled with Matthew16:24-26...
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, and yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?
For as long as I can remember all I ever really wanted to be was a farm wife and mom (well ok besides the occasional obsession with becoming an FBI Special Agent)...and yet that barefoot and pregnant train derailed as soon as it pulled away from the station.
While some dreams die hard - others refuse to die.
And yet the pages of my story continue to turn and the trajectory of my life has been radically altered. For as it turns out God has in fact enlisted me to change the world...to help bring His Kingdom here on earth as it is in heaven. And so I've set out to breathe light onto the streets of my community and change the face of African agriculture. It looks nothing like I expected...more than I could have ever imagined...and yet ever different from the dreams of my heart. It's living in this space...between the broken dreams and the new purpose...where the scriptures comes to life.
It's the place where I pick up my cross daily...
...to follow Him
Where I lose my life...
...only to be found
Where I seek first His kingdom...
...trusting the needed things will be given to me
And where I delight myself in Him...
...knowing He will give me the desires of my heart.
I wonder...will you meet me here?
Are you living in the unknown...the space in between...
standing on the edge of the cliff and staring out across the fog.
Sometimes there aren't easy answers...there is only choosing to press in, to live, breathe, touch and wrestle (with the scriptures)
until they are not only true on the page...but have become true in your heart.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33
Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
There are some scriptures that need to be lived...breathed...touched...wrestled...before they can ever be appreciated or understood.
I've long wrestled with Matthew16:24-26...
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, and yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?
For as long as I can remember all I ever really wanted to be was a farm wife and mom (well ok besides the occasional obsession with becoming an FBI Special Agent)...and yet that barefoot and pregnant train derailed as soon as it pulled away from the station.
While some dreams die hard - others refuse to die.
And yet the pages of my story continue to turn and the trajectory of my life has been radically altered. For as it turns out God has in fact enlisted me to change the world...to help bring His Kingdom here on earth as it is in heaven. And so I've set out to breathe light onto the streets of my community and change the face of African agriculture. It looks nothing like I expected...more than I could have ever imagined...and yet ever different from the dreams of my heart. It's living in this space...between the broken dreams and the new purpose...where the scriptures comes to life.
It's the place where I pick up my cross daily...
...to follow Him
Where I lose my life...
...only to be found
Where I seek first His kingdom...
...trusting the needed things will be given to me
And where I delight myself in Him...
...knowing He will give me the desires of my heart.
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| Traveon and Tyvon overlooking Lake Michigan |
I wonder...will you meet me here?
Are you living in the unknown...the space in between...
standing on the edge of the cliff and staring out across the fog.
Sometimes there aren't easy answers...there is only choosing to press in, to live, breathe, touch and wrestle (with the scriptures)
until they are not only true on the page...but have become true in your heart.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33
Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
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